I pulled the covers up higher and smiled at the smell of Justin’s cologne. I felt sink in again but I was too tired to turn back. I felt a kiss on my cheek before I heard Justin voice whisper. “I love you.”I smiled as I felt him wrap his arms around me. I might just love him too.
"What are you sad for?"My dad asked coming into my room as I sat on the bed with my face in my hands. "I’m fine."I replied wiping my face as I looked up at him.
"Aren’t you guys back together?"He asked taking a seat next to me on the bed. "I don’t know right now and I’m fine."I replied.
"Zariah, you know you can tell me anything, now what is wrong?"He asked right as we got a knock on the door. I looked up seeing Justin.
"I guess I’ll let you guys talk, but no funny business."My dad said getting up. I looked back down at my lap before I felt the bed sink in.
"What’s next?"He asked. "That’s what I’m trying to figure out. I don’t want to hurt you or get hurt by you. I want us to be happy but I don’t know if we can together."I looked up at him with a frown.
"We start off fresh."He suggested. I raised an eyebrow. "How about we leave the past behind and start off new. I love you and you love me so we should begin with that."He smiled.
"Even forget our car thing?"I asked. He bit his lip looking down. "If its something that you regret."He met my eyes pain in his brown eyes.
"I didn’t mean that. I was just mad and lying to the both of us. That meant a lot to me but I just wanted to say something to hurt you."He looked away nodding his head.
"I promise it was a lie and that’s why I am sad now. I don’t want us to hurt each other so I don’t know. I know I have feelings for you but I don’t know if we are meant to be. If we have a happy ending. Maybe we have what we had in the beginning."I frowned.
"That hurt the shit out of me. That stung so much because in that car I knew that I really really love you."He turned back forcing a smile wiping his cheeks.
"Justin, and I’m sorry. You didn’t deserve all of that. You deserve so much more. I knew I had went too far that time and I’m sorry."I looked down.
"I finally fell. It was the haters that wanted to see me fall but it was my own love that actually made me fall."He wiped his cheeks. He got up right before I responded and shook his head.
"Justin, I’m so sorry."I got up wrapping my arms around his body really meaning it. He wrapped his arms back and sighed his chin resting on my shoulder.
"It’s okay. I didn’t mean to tell you all that anyway."He said making me pull away just to look at him. "You did mean to tell me because I’m like your girlfriend and you can tell me anything no matter how it may sound to you or me."I smiled.
"I want to fuck you so hard and so much right now."He smiled pecking my lips. "Um, maybe not everything."I blushed laughing a little as I pecked his lips.
"You said everything."He leaned his head on mine. "I didn’t mean your negative thoughts."I replied. "It’s not a negative thought its an urge."He smirked his hands finding my waist.
I smiled kissing his lips as I wrapped my arms around his neck. “I really, really love you.”I said against his lips. “I know.”He replied making me pull away raising an eyebrow.
"But I do know it but its too bad because I love you way more than you could ever love me."He smiled. "It’s too late I think I love you way more."I said.
"You really don’t, I don’t know how I’m going to get it into your head but I will."He smiled. I shook my head. I smiled as I pressed my lips onto his. He kissed back closing the space between us.
"Your my girl, my woman, my everything and I will love you forever."He smiled. I smiled as well. "Does this mean that we are together?"I asked.
"If you want us to be."He smiled. I smiled as well. "I would be honored."I smiled. "This time if we get angry we got to work it out."He kissed my lips
"Justin?"I asked. "Yeah?"He asked. "You know the magazine and all that stuff is it all true?"I asked. "I-I-" "So you slept with that prostitute and your hook onto drugs?"I asked.
"That wasn’t even a prostitute. I had a party and brought over fans and well I guess she took a picture of me while I was sleeping."He explained. "The drugs? I um, I just want a time in my life to be happy and just not care so I do them."He added.
"Justin, you can die from that."I frowned. "It wouldn’t matter I already know I love you and that your the only woman that would ever hold a place in my heart."He replied.
"Justin, you need to quit it before it takes a bad effect on you. What am I going to do by myself if that kills you?"I asked. "It’s going to kill me to quit."He replied. "No, its going to kill you because you didn’t quit."I replied.
"It doesn’t matter everyone dies okay."He laid his chin on my shoulder. "Justin, your scarring me."I frowned. "Just focus on you. I made my decision."He rubbed my back.
"Justin, listen to me. I don’t need nor wanting you dying."I pulled away starring into his brown eyes. He licked his lips looking down. "I’ll be fine, baby I promise."He kissed my lips.
“The fuck? You would be fine? I’m going to suffer so much if you chose this drug over your life.”I hit his chest. “Zariah, I’m not choosing it over my life.”He shook his head. “Oh really? Did you ever realize that if your going to pick something, your going to have to loose another?”I asked.
“What do I have to loose?”He asked. “Since you want to do this shit. Write down a list of your heart, your lungs, eyes, feet, then your loved ones and decide which one your willing to loose just to smoke.”I crossed my arms.
"This is just who I am now, baby."He replied. "Fine whatever just know your going to loose one of them."I rolled my eyes. "I haven’t smoked in front of you before."He sighed.
"You are still smoking damn, Justin."I rolled my eyes. "I’m a man I can handle myself."He bit his lip. "No, a dead man if you keep up with this shit."I replied rolling my eyes.
"Can we just stop fighting?"He asked. "Fine whatever."I sighed. "Good, now let’s go do dating things."He said making me laugh. How smart to say.
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